30 minutes of staring into each others eyes with ari Elsa in Bistro-event in El Fant.
i only remember the sensations
blue, violet, green, black
and the way elsa’s face changed
and the colours changed
and the background changed
everywhere except elsa’s eyes
i remember the tram and the sound of the tram and the stoned pavement in the part of helsinki where i have not been accustomed to be, there are no houses, it is built for turists, i remember my eyes tense, if eyes have tendons they were tense, and the blood vessels were tense, but still, it was quite easy. 30 minutes is too short, we must do longer!!!!
it is my ethos, that i do not make entertainment, i wish to bring whatever the performance arouses to the room, be it amusement or something completely different. and i really wanted to stare into elsa’s eyes. but still, after the performance, i felt shame, for the boredom i induced the audience to experience. the shame enters me every time. then it passes. usually i perform a bit of people pleasing when doing minimalist durational pieces: i create the performance so no one needs to sit through something boring if they do not wish to do so. But that is always the case isn’t it? every person could have left the room, could have changed positions. there were no instructions, still every time there is a show we act in a certain way.
picture is by Panu Räisänen
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